POV
25 Mar 2012 Leave a Comment
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They say that there are two kinds of special bonds in this world— two kinds of strings that tie people together.
One of them is the red thread, the bond that signifies romantic love: True love, fated chance of two people destined to be together. It roots from the very core of a person’s heart. It is like an addicting drug, like fire igniting a passionate connection that can only be defined with hearts being bonded together. Most common but hardly ever unbroken, it is a bond that could either mean a person’s happiness or destruction. It is a fragile string that will either stand out the test of time, or simply be cut.
The second one is the silver thread, the bond that symbolizes a different kind of love. It signifies friendship: true friendship that forms from the very roots of the soul. It connects two strangers together by the essence of their person. It is like water— calm, enriching, warm and easily molded, adjusted and shaped. Most rare but hardly ever broken, it is a bond that becomes the definition of a person. It is a piece of string that is the hardest to find— but once tied, it remains timeless ly strong.
The red and silver threads are the strongest bonds a person could ever form in a lifetime…
But if you are forced to cut one to keep the other… which would you choose?
… Man, who writes prologues like this in a story that’s titled “Choices?” It’s cheesy, it’s corny, it’s against everything that I believe a good introduction should be, it has freaking similes! Similes!
I know I should just hack it away from my draft, but I can’t bring myself to. I love it, but I hate it. I love that I wrote it, but I hate that I wouldn’t even give it a second glance if I was the reader, not the writer.
I’ve been writing “Choices” since 2008, and I still haven’t managed to get it past the editing process. Four years of labor, and I still haven’t finished it, which is pathetic because it’s just a fanfic and it shouldn’t take this long, but it’s my baby and I’ve been developing it endlessly from a four-page drabble into an almost one hundred-page draft.
And now I’m having thoughts about changing the POV from first person to second person, except that I’ve written the entire thing in first person and though I hated it for a while, I relentlessly edited it until it worked. And it was fine like that. But then, recently, I rewrote a section, one measley section and changed it to second person, which turned out ten times better than it was. And the thought of rewiring everything is exhausting, and the first person POV is how I wrote it. I don’t know what to do.
Who said writing was easy? It’s like pulling a tooth. Without anesthesia. And with a plier.
I need advise. And a beta. Where can I find those?
JYJ Impromptu Song
05 May 2011 Leave a Comment
in DBSK, Music, Randomness Tags: jyj
Yoochun on piano, plays a random tune. Junsu hums along. Jaejoong starts singing about Junsu, stringing up lyrics as he goes along. Junsu, delighted, sings along with him. The staff just helplessly laugh.
Jaejoong plays the piano and starts another impromptu song about… how cold he is. And their manager’s eating habits.
I bet there’s never an uninteresting day when you’re with these guys.
And it’s not fair how they can make a song in seconds when it takes me months (years even!) to come up with a good enough melody for one.
>.<
Duel!
19 Apr 2011 Leave a Comment
in Randomness Tags: anime, Yugioh
When my fandom of obsession is unerringly thrown to chaos and handling everything about it any longer might cause spontaneous Meriken combustion, where do I turn to? Of course, good ol’ anime. Oh, yes, overused plots, cliches-that-really-should-die-soon, ridiculous exagerations and disproportionate bodily statistics galore! What more could you ask for?
Ahem.
So I really thought I’m over my obsession for anime years ago… Which, I am, I guess. However, it has become one of those things that I keep coming back to for stress/boredom relief even though I often snort and find myself cringing at the plot ridiculousness (how many animes have I seen that has the protagonist stumbling to protect the world over something so trivial?), many exageration, and disproportionate body statistics (can you imagine having those unnaturally BIG eyes in the real world? I mean… they’re cute and all, but…). Of course, those things are what makes animes… anime. And I admit I do enjoy them very much.
The most recent anime I’ve watched and loved and am currently writing about is YuGiOh. More
Unimportant ramblings. Ignore if you must.
03 Mar 2011 Leave a Comment
in DBSK, Randomness
TVXQ5…. It’s frustrating. Whenver I want to refer to the 5-member group, I always feel like I have to tack on a 5 since only two is still using it right now. I’ll just call them HoMin and JYJ.
I’ve been thinking for a long time that they’re probably never going back together, and I’m okay with that. It was a bitter pill to swallow, but I’m finally learning to accept that. I’m just all for supporting both HoMin and JYJ, even though admittedly I follow JYJ more zealously, but that’s just because of my personal bias with Jaejoong. The split was painful, but I’m healing. Stopped torturing myself with waiting for things to get better and just resolved to deal with what comes next. It’s much easier than being disappointed again and again and again. I’m just dreading the time where they’d have to face against each other on stage. Fanwars will explode left and right, and the fight will be vicious. It’s sad to see Cassiopeia, a fandom almost legendary with their devotion, split in these ugly terms. I feel sadder for those who continue to support the five who’re left in the middle, playing referee between JYJ and HoMin fans.
On the bright side, since I’ve stopped listening almsot exclusively to Asian Pop Music, I’m rediscovering American mainstream which is more diverse and a bit more competitive. I can finally relate to my friends— oh joy! — who have finally heard me sing a non-Korean/Japanese song. I want to listen more into OPM, too, and it makes me sad that bands like Sugarfree and Bamboo have disbanded, too… The lack of lawsuits and petty fighst were a relief. I swear, it’s like I’m now allergic to the word “lawsuit.” I’m allergic to the letters S and M, too, especially when they’re together with E, but that’s just me.
I haven’t rambled in a long time. Ha. Though I think my sentence structure and organization went from half-way decent to downright atrocious. Oh, well…
Contemplation
23 Jan 2011 Leave a Comment
in Life, Randomness
Nothing earth-shattering, of course. Just some self-introspection that’s been long overdue.
Please…
13 Jan 2011 Leave a Comment
in Randomness
Whoever stole my laptop out there, please return it to me. It’s very precious to me. I have files and pictures and videos that are personal and important–please return my laptop to me.
In conclusion…
12 Jan 2011 Leave a Comment
in Randomness
Due to my recent very pissed-off angry rant last post that I doubt anybody have read because I don’t want anybody to know how I’ve discovered my inner witchiness (yeah, I mean exactly what you’re thinking), I’d like to share something from my journal last year, just to balance out the negativeness of my thoughts lately:
I Love Questionnaires
10 Aug 2010 2 Comments
in Life, Randomness
Don’t you? Who doesn’t? Remember those early teenage years, in grade school when you and your friends use to huddle in a corner to answer a couple or three ”autograph notebooks” that go around the class? And then you’re in your last years of high school and you look back and you can’t believe how silly and vain the whole thing was?
Well, I found a questionnaire on one of my old notebooks from the Philippines (and seeing the answers I’ve written 3-4 years ago made me lament on how lame I was at 15.), and thought “Hm, why not?” and started answering.
