Posts Tagged With: Music

Not Yet (self-composed)

This is a song I wrote back in 2010. I finally had the courage to re-record it again after the first video I recorded was stolen along with my first laptop (sob. I still haven’t gotten over that). The lyrics might sound familiar, because they are, and I’ve written the same exact words before in a post here somewhere, which I then decided to turn into a poem. I wasn’t satisfied with it, so I turned it into a song. It was a hard, rough journey filled with frustration and much hair-pulling to get into this (probably lacking) final product.

Not Yet

With one last smile and one last laugh
ou’re leaving without going back
it’s hard to let go when it’s clear
it still remains that thing I fear

you said we’ll always be together
flying high to stars and skies
I’d rather us two fall together
hold my hand, baby, hold my hand

Not yet, not now, I plead and pray
so many words there is to say
and songs to sing, don’t go away
Not yet, not now, if only I
could turn the world around for you
I’ll carry you, I’ll carry you

It’s hard to tell myself it’s alright,
that our days are over
I won’t forget, I’m holding on
look back, look back, don’t go

Not yet, not now, I plead and pray
so words there is to say
and songs to sing, don’t go away
Not yet, not now, if only I
could turn the world around for you
I’ll carry you, I’ll carry you

You promised me forever
What is it but just a word
This essence so deeply imbued
It’s opposite cuts like a sword

Not yet, not now, if only I
could turn the world around for you
I’ll carry you, I’ll carry you

Not yet, not now, I plead and pray
so words there is to say
and songs to sing, don’t go away
Not yet, not now, if only I
could turn the world around for you
I’ll carry you, I’ll carry you
I’ll carry you, I’ll carry you.


Have mistakes, wrong chords and all. That was my third take, and my throat was getting sore, so I just uploaded the best take there was.

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Behold Shim Changmin’s awesomeness

I can’t help myself. I really can’t help myself. This made me cry and I don’t even know why.

Make way for Shim Chang-freaking-min!

This has been the best 43 seconds of my Changmin-fangirlism…

Who care’s if he’s a popstar? He’s my new favorite rock star!

EDIT [9-10-10]

Here’s a longer fancam. I just never get tired of it…

*starry-eyed* I am so inlove…

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Soundtrip 3

Just to prove that I do have a life (no matter how little) outside of TVXQ, I bring to you one of my favorite Filipino songs of all time:

Sana Maulit Muli

My dad was listening to the English version last night, and it reminded me of how much I love this song. I can’t describe enough the beauty of this song. To make it short, it’s perfection. Hauntingly beautiful melody and poetic lyrics, composed and sang by one of the most distinguished and respected musicians in the Philippines, Mr. Gary Valenciano, sends me shivers and makes me want to sigh and daydream. It’s the kind of song that I would like to be sang at my funeral (shoot, I’m being attacked by a plot bunny…), because the lyrics and melody are, dare I say it, otherwordly.

The English Version Sang by Mr. Andrey Silva

Roughly translated as I Wish It Would Happen Again

I think Mr. Silva did a very good job on this. His voice succeeded in giving me shivers, too, and the translation was spot on. Usually, when you translate a song of another language to English or any other language, the song loses it’s intimate essence, but this song is almost the direct translation of the Filipino version, and the original impact is felt.

The drama “Sana Maulit Muli” which used this song as it’s OST was very good, too. Starring Kim Chiu and Gerald Anderson. I watched it for two days straight with my mom without sleeping back in late 2007, so based on that, you can guess how good it is. It was also aired in Taiwan (titled “Chances”), and I was so proud of that. I wish Filipinos could import more dramas, because we have some original and very good ones.

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50+ Reasons Why I Love Them

Completely unecessary, but hey, I’m a hopeless fan, and I wanted to have some fun. So there. 

It all started with this, which then turned into this list: 

1. Because Yoochun is a crybaby. 

2. Because Junsu starts crying when Yoochun starts crying. 

3. Because Changmin seems like the oldest and most mature even though he’s the youngest. 

4. Because Jaejoong acts like the youngest despite being the oldest. 

5. Because they give the most passionate performances on stage that they even cry while singing. I have never seen any group that had been carried away with the emotion of a song to actually be driven in tears. 

6. Because they’re very grateful of their fans that one time they even kneeled on stage to praise the audience during the last performance. 

7. Because their vocal talent and powerful performances is unrefutable and undeniable. 

8. Because no matter how perfect they may seem, they always make mistakes, and it makes them more human. 

9. Because Yoochun used to come up with the weirdest get-ups, hairstyles, and clothes. We all think his stylist hated him. 

10. Because Jaejoong keeps insisting that he doesn’t look good when he smiles so he covers his mouth when he laughs. We all, of course, disagree. 

11. Because despite Yunho’s manly tough exterior on camera, he’s a pile of mush and cute-ness inside. 

12. Because all of them are complete goofballs. Even Changmin… except sometimes he watches the others with a “What in the world are my hyungs doing?” expression. 

13. Because Changmin always has crazy hand gestures like a conductor, whenever they sing a ballad song. 

14. Because Junsu’s laugh is so unique you can’t help but laugh along with him and the other members love to imitate him to tease him. (I want to show the clip, but I can’t find it. It involves a takoyaki contest, and Junsu loosing, which of course prompted him to complain, which in turn prompts the rest to gang up on him. And it the clip ends when Junsu laughs his “Eu kyang kyangTM” laugh, which the others gleefuly imitates. Message me when you find it.) 

15. Because their acapellas are to die for. And they can turn an unremarkable song into a piece of jaw-dropping heavenly music. 

16. Because Changmin is the most feared member of the group despite being the youngest. See, height + muscles + sharp tongue + innocent face + evil mind = most feared member of the group… 

17. …Unless of course faced with Yunho’s wrath. … Leader-shi rules all

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18. Because only Jaejoong can pull off bleached blond hair without looking totally ridiculous or trying-hard. And we want platinum blonde Jaejoong back. Who’s with me? 

19. Because writing and reading fanfictions about them is fun. Fanfiction is an essential in the fandom. 

20. Because Junsu’s peculiar obsession with soccer makes the other members think that he should have been a soccer player instead. 

21. Because Jaejoong trips on his own foot probably 10x a day. Okay, used to… Does he still trip? Because I used to think he wouldn’t be Jaejoong unless he trips… 

22. Because despite their appearance (come on, pretty gorgeous Asian superstars…), athletics is one of their strong points. The group’s competitiveness is almost intimidating. See Suju’s EHB DBSK ep. and Infinite Challenge and… uhm, pretty much every sport clip with DBSK competing on it. 

23. Because Changmin’s vocal range is unbelievably high that I’m pretty sure he would be able to break my computer monitor if he turns it on full force.24. Because they just love torturing each other, and their favorite victim is Junsu.  Poor guy… 

25. Because it is not a hidden fact that Jaejoong is camwhore, and I know for a fact that he has a built-in seeking device that enables him to spot cameras within a fifty-foot radius.25. Because Changmin is the sheer definition of four-dimentionality and wit… 

26. …Yet, when you think the guy is nothing but snark and sarcasm, he surprises you with how often he laughs hysterically (of course, mostly at Junsu’s expense)

27. Because Changmin has a special quirk– when he’s happy, his eyes are mismatched, and when he’s annoyed, his lips are mismatched. 

28. Because Changmin has the uncanny ability to eat 7 meals a day without growing fat. How unfair is that? 

29. Because Junsu sings randomly 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. He goes on. And on. And on. And– 


31. Becasuse Yoochun and Jaejoong comes up with the sweetest most beautiful melodies I’ve ever heard of… Kiss Shita MamaLove Bye Love, Colors Melody and Harmnony, Wasurenaide, Kiss the Baby Sky, 9095… Actually, all of them have nice compositions. Junsu’s Picture of You, Yunho’s Checkmate, Changmin’s lyrics for Korean version of Love in the Ice and Evergreen. They should all write and release more songs. 

32. Because past the mischievous glint in his eyes, smile almost as bright as the sun, and constant teasing of Junsu, Yoochun is the most sensitive man I have ever known.  

33. YunJae, YooSu, Kiss Couple, Soulmates, Soulfighters, 2U, Tall Brothers, MinSu, Jaesu, Hosu…  

35. There’s a reason Soulfighters is my favorite couple. One moment they’re like mother and son, the next they hit each other, then hug each other, then they come to an agreement to live together peacefully, then declare that they (or Jaejoong, rather) love each other and then be back to hitting each other again, and again , and–dare I say it– again.   

34. They could seriously form a real family, complete with a mom (Jaejoong), a dad (Yunho) and kids (Yoochun, Junsu, Changmin). They fit their roles perfectly well.  


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35. They just… just complement each other so well. They just fit together like that, like they were born to dominate stages together. Where one has weakness on one part, the others fill it up. Strenths get magnified.  

36.  Yunho… you have to know tbat even the combined strength of the rest of your members cannot stop Jaejoong’s vanity…  

37. Link . Oh… well, I guess that works, too… And that (although it’s a little too harsh). 

38. Sometimes, when you see Changmin in deep thought, you can’t help but think that he’s planning ways on world domination.  

39. Work ethics are the best I’ve seen. They always do their best to deliver the best show they could give to their fans.  

 And wherever they are, they always know how to have fun, whether it’s by bullying Junsu or getting overexcited with simple things… like toy soy beans and soy sauces… or barbie dolls. Seriously.  

40. I’ve read this somewhere and I can’t help but agree wholeheartedly –> They are Energizer Bunny on crack.  

Exhibit A  

Exhibit B (Chagmin, I commend you for not laughing and/or hitting them when you finished).  

Exhibit C  

Exhibit D (And they pick on Junsu again).  

Exhibit — er, I probably shouldn’t. We don’t have enough alphabets…  

41.  They like to make me cry. Of course, seeing hyper Junsu in a wheelchair alone makes me want to cry, but the brief performance of Bolero that started at around 3:17 made me seriously bawl. Dedication is the word. Dedication. 


42. PEARL RED SEA. I need to be a part fo it. Cassiopeia, BigEast or International… They’re the same Pearl Red Sea… Red Ocean is so breath-taking and amazing. Their determination and devotion to show how much they love DBSK just makes me love DBSK more.  

43. I have to be honest. For some insane reason I couldn’t remember, I didn’t like Junsu during the earlier weeks of my fandom– until he opened his mouth and sang…   

44. Jaejoong is Cassiopeia’s best friend. He just blurts out whatever is on his mind, and what better way to find out juicy Dong Bang Shin Ki secrets than the member who has a foot-in-mouth disease?  

45. If Jaejoong always eats his foot, then Changmin is a walking pile of snark. The guy just bluntly says whatever is on his mind in the dryest way possible, and you can’t help but laugh and feel sorry to who he is directing his snark to… Make way for Prince Changmin  

46. Changmin have seizures when he laughs.  

47. They’re gorgeous. Period. If you ever deny that, then you need to go to an optometrist, or are in severe need of a dictionary.  

48. Yunho may not be the most recognizable singer in the group, but he’s the best damn leader you’ll ever see. And to all of you who questions Yunho’s singing capabilities, I laugh at your faces. HAH!  

49. This.   

50. Their music. From heart-wrenching ballads to bubble gum pop to R & B to dance songs to Acapella to rock to just about every music genre there is… They just sing so well.  

51. They clawed their way to the top, shedding blood, sweat and tears on the way. They were at the peak of their popularity in their homeland, and then were suddenly shipped off to a foreign land where they were virtually nobodies. They clambered like blind men at first, mute because of the language barrier and isolated from the rest. With only each other as compnay, they pushed themselves to their limits, together overcame depression and homesickness and earnestly learned the language, continuously improving their capabilities as artists, eventually winning the hearts of their fans and doing their best to make them happy. And yet they remain humble, still continuously trying to improve and doing their best in everything. And now that they’re seeking to broaden their horizons, to stretch their wings and leave the nest, I only wish for them to reach the new dreams they are now working for.  

52. Because they’re Jaejoong, Yunho, Yoochun, Junsu and Changmin, and even if they stop being Hero, U-know, Micky, Xiah and Max, they will always be Jaejoong, Yunho, Yoochun, Junsu and Changmin, and I’m more than happy with that.  

Even if they stop being TVXQ, I’ll still love JYCYJ forever.  

If I could insert my whole favorites section from Youtube… I can’t. It’d take me more than a year.

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Soundtrip 2

Alright! It’s true! I admit it! I am a shameless obsessed DBSK fan with absolutely no social life whatsoever! There!

SmileyBunny: As if that wasn’t obvious enough…

And so I will offer no excuses as to why I am currently addicted to these songs:

First up, Darkness Eyes. It’s dark. It’s angsty, hypnotizingly poignant and it’s reeking of Tohoshinki epic-ness. And I love it. So watch and listen!

SmileyBunny: Don’t you dare start drooling or I’ll use your face to mop the keyboard!

I so do not drool! I just like the choreo, that’s all!

Second, All In Vain. Mysterious. Sexy. Shady with a tint of jazz, and Yoochun’s voice is oh-my-goodness-so-totally-right I can’t imagine anyone else being the main vocal of this song.

I soooo love the english parts… I think the not-so-perfect pronounciations give the song a distinct Yoochun-flavor… exotic, rough, unique, unrefined and creative! The rap… I didn’t think you could harmonize in a rap! That is just so… so DBSK!

And you know what’s funny? I used to despise these kind of songs two years ago…  Angsty stuff  used to be the bane of my existence. (Teenager in denial, yes, that’s me). It makes me think now, what was I thinking? I sometimes can’t believe how DBSK widened my horizon in music. I mean, hey, this is the band that made Mirotic one of my favorite songs. Me, Little Miss Wholesome who lives purely with sunshine and butterflies, listens to this? <– addicting song, by the way… Just give it time to sink it.

Good music is good music whatever language or whatever genre.

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Rantings of a Passionate Fan

I really didn’t want this blog to contain more topics about DBSK than the rest of my life, but what else can I do if the main event of my day is sitting down in front of the computer and watching five guys prance around a stage?

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Stand By U

I just want to share this song…

Video credits go to jejupoh@youtube

My boyfriends all-time favorite band, DBSK, or in this case, Tohoshinki, just releases the MV (drama version) of their newest single “Stand By U,” and the song is by far officially my ultimate favorite Tohoshinki song.

I remember hearing the song preview (I think it was almost a month ago) the first time. I was in the middle of procastinating, Youtube-ing my boyfriends DBSK videos, and when I clicked on the song I accidentally said a curse word (it starts with “S”), which is just a much more intense equivalent of “Wow.”

 I think I like this better than “Doushite Kimi Wo Suki Ni Natte Shimattan Darou” (longest name of a song EVER). I was, at first, a bit disappointed by the MV this morning, but the more I watched it, the more I grew fond of it. The song itself was awesome. The good beat plus the beautiful melody (I especially like the chorus) plus the heart-breaking lyrics plus the wonderful voices of my boyfriends the guys equals BREATHTAKING… This song just ROCKS and I hope the guys get another Oricon Weekly… better yet, an Oricon. Monthly! Yeah, that’s right! Give them an Oricon Monthly!

Tohoshinki FTW!

SmileyBunny: …Since when do you use “FTW?”$

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Remember my poem “A Friend’s Farewell” that I said I turned into a song about a year ago? Well, as a result of severe procrastination of studying and a request from my friend Jhen, I recorded it and uploaded it in Youtube. Here it is, entitled “Someday”…


Someday (by Maria Erika D. Enriquez)

I always knew there will be a time for us to say goodbye
Here on Earth, everything’s ought to change
Even our friendship will fade out soon
It’s hard to admit, but it’s true

I know that if I go away today
Nothing will ever be the same for us again
But I’ll never forget the memories
And the dreams we share

That when we meet again someday
Even if we never could bring back the broken bond forever
We can still make a better bond, greater and stronger
We’d still be best of friends till the end of the end
I’ll wait…

My mind is young and unrefined, my heart frail and weak
I don’t really understand things so sharp and sleek
But let me tell you how you made me understand
How you made my narrow and child-bounded mind expand

You hold a part of me that I can’t live without
You made me see what life is all about
You’re not the perfect person all around
You’re not the perfect friend who never makes a sound

But I don’t care, I love you and that’s what matters now
I do not even need to make out a promise or a vow
You may not be the nicest nor the strongest one around
But you help me stand up when I fall on the ground
Tall and proud

Together we’ve been traveling in this long road of life
But here comes a point where the road’s been cut by a knife
The once one way had been divided by a cross
I don’t want to part but in this life I’m not boss

Before I step inside that metal bird
Before I finish packing up my jeans and shirts
Before I step outside the borders of our home
I have to make sure that you won’t feel alone

I can’t come back at once when you start to cry
Nor will I be there to boost you up when you become too shy
Just remember that you’ll never be alone
Even if I’m far away, in your heart I’m home

….Again someday…
Even if we never could bring back the broken bond forever
We can still make a better bond, greater and stronger
We’d still be best of friends till the end of the end
I know we’ll meet again someday
Even if we never could bring back the times we’re not together
I know you’ll wait for me and someday I’d be back
We’d still be best of friends till the end of the end
We’d drink beer, eat and laugh and I’ll never sing this song again
I’ll wait for that day
When we’re together again
I’m gonna be waiting for it
Waiting for it
Waiting for it…

It’s actually my fifth take and I still messed up a few lines, and my voice also cracked (how embarrassing…). But, yeah…

Dedicated to Boyle and Archimedes batch 2007  and the other graduating classes to come.


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Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou?

Ignoring the incredibly long title, I must say that This song. Is. Addicting!

This song is the newest Japanese single of my ultimate favorite boyband of all time, Dong Bang Shin Ki!

It’s been stuck in my head ever since yesterday morning, and I can’t get it out. But I’m not complaining. The bitter-sweet melody, bitter-sweet lyrics, bitter-sweet voices and the bitter-sweet (but not heavily emotional) MV just mix so very well together. I love the simplicity and beauty of the song. You don’t have to be able to understand Japanese to know that the song is melancholy and sad, because the melody alone gives you the feeling. And the beautiful voices of my dear DBSK guys complimented that feeling (although, I could do without the synthesizer… but meh, if that’s what they want then fine).

Here is the translation of the lyrics (credits to system_chaos @

Why Did I End Up Falling For You

Why did I end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed
I still thought you were right here
But you’ve already chosen a different path

Why couldn’t I call out to you at all?
Every day and night growing emotions
And words overflow
But I realized that
They’d never reach you again

Since that day I first met you
I felt like I already knew you
You and I melded into each other so smoothly

It was natural for me to be where you were
The two of us grew up together
But you’ve already chosen a different path

Why did I end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed
I still thought you were right here
Now we can’t turn back

The special meaning held by this day
Today you stood with a happy expression
You looked beautiful while praying to god

But I wasn’t the one next to you
And the image of you receiving blessings
Of that how could I let go?

Why did I end up falling for you?
How we were before
We can’t return to it anymore (I’ve thought it through, thought it through)

Why didn’t I hold on to your hand?
No matter how much time has passed
You should’ve always been by my side (never changing)

But still, even if I’m nowhere near you anymore
I’m praying that you
May be happy for eternity
No matter how much that would make me lonely (no matter how lonely)

All I know is that I ♥HEART♥ this song, and being the BIG weirdo that I am, I am going to memorize it!

I’ve even printed out the romanisation and translation and recorded the song on my cellphone (because I am poor and have no tape recorder or a cassette player)! The words are kind of hard to follow because aside from being in Japanese, the pronunciation is really fast unlike their other Japanese songs… but I’m slowly getting the hang of it!

And I’m still loving this song even though I’ve listened to it like more that twenty times today!

And just for the heck of it, here’s a fan-made MV featuring the Dong Bang Boys themselves:

 by tvxq009 @

Later, dudes!

*merrily skips away and huddles to a corner and starts memorizing the song*

SmileyBunny: …weirdo…

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